Like A Child On Christmas Morning

Only a whole lot better, so so stoked, i don't know who to tell any of this to as noone will care except music tech geeks but my laptop is now set up to be like the most perfect daw the world could ever know, dual partitioned hard drive with mac os x 10.4.9 with logic pro for any vocal recording and close knit editing, then on the other partition, xp pro sp3 with cubase 4 and everything i need within it, just got spectrasonics omnisphere set up as well, which is pretty much the best soft synth i've ever had the pleasure to use, fuck i'm excited to think of what this is all going to yield. Also, prospects with regards to some collabo's (yes reda) of various genres, my mind is finally coming out of the static it's inadvertently sealed itself in for so long. In other news, i finish work in 2 and a half weeks, am planning to go to Victoria to see some friends for like a week then come back here to chill/party for a week long music festival before coming the fuck back to England! Times ahead are good, times current are the same, my roommate is moving out tomorrow, and my job is nothing to me.

GOODNIGHT, i am going to try a backflip off of a 30 ft kicker tomorrow and see what happens, video evidence to come soon!

Mixtape No. 4 (kinda)

So this isn't really a mixtape per se, despite being more of a mix than all of the previous ones that've been on here, as if anyone really cares anyway, but they had a fair few downloads so i thought i'd add a belated 4th edition. This is pretty much a total non-sequiter considering the styles i previously put mixes together on, and is also an actual full mix, as in, one mp3 file with my recently acquired djing beginners techniques used to throw it together, i pretty much had nothing on the agenda for tonight so decided to put a little set together, hopefully some of it works out ok, i tried to put a bit of thought into the selection and be a little creative, most of the drops/general timings are super sloppy but fuck, what can you do. Hope you enjoy, i'm not going to bother giving any kind of information on most of the artists featured as i don't really know so much about most of them, so here's a tracklisting.

1. Telepathe - Devils Trident (Hearts Revolution Edit)
2. Surkin - Next Of Kin
3. The Mae Shi - Kingdom Come edit
4. Lo-Fi-Fnk - Want U
5. Klaxons - As Above, So Below(Justice Remix)
6. Music Go Music - Warm In The Shadows
7. Streetlife Dj's - We Like The Disco Sound
8. Boys Noize - Shine Shine
9. Para One - Du Dun Dun(MSTRKRFT Remix)
10. Health - Triceratops (Acid Girls Remix)
11. Digitalism - Homezone
12. Kavinsky - Wayfarer
13. The Bloody Beetroots - Butter
14 . Goose - British Mode(Jester Remix)
15. Shadow Dancer - Cowbois(Demo version)
16. MSTRKRFT - Vuvuvu
17. Siriusmo - Simple
18. Kill The Noise - Pull My Strings

download it here!

http://www.mediafire.com/?ttrni5tkymd

Writers Block/Warm Ups

It's been a long time since i've attempted to tune my previously conditioned mind back into the field of harmony, melody, rhythm and tempo, so therefore there's a slow long process to come before i can start bringing anything to anyone out there. Mainly i think it's the lack of direction that's an issue, from having had so long with no instruments to play i've got so many ideas that i need to implement in so many styles and modes that without some kind of focus or agenda i'll carry on my 15 minute work on intros before exiting without saving every time, i tell myself it's practice but that's a cop out. Patience is required, much more perseverance and a view towards an ending, always, an ending, otherwise this is all a waste of time and what i consider myself to be appropriate for in this ride is nothing more than another pipe dream. In the meantime, while trying to write some glitchy electronica, prefuse meets shadow esque(DIRECTIVE NUMBER 1) i'll compile another mixtape to upload, my ankles still not totally better, fuck, so there's sufficient downtime, after all, i finished watching every single video on the berrics at least twice, the well is dry.

In other news, Cinemechanica have released one of the most technically proficient pieces of music i've heard in a long time, 2 drummers, ridiculously intelligent and precise construction, so check out Rivals here, especially the track Kurosawa, it's sick.

I am a tourist.

No Idea

The world is a baffling place.

Some fucked up crying baby contest

Urges

I was just suddenly taken over, out of nowhere by a surge of paternal love towards everyone i've ever cared about in any capacity, to the extent of wanting to wrap themselves, their lives and motions in a blanket of cotton woll between anything bad and innocence. Whether this is down to not having seen most of them in at least 5 months, which is in essence a long time(considering how fast things move at this age, or at least should)or the pictures of me and my sister at like age 0 shown below i don't know, probably both.

I've been getting into djing/remixing a fair bit lately, genuinely considering spending the majority of any money i have left in the world on some usb decks, not forgetting the idea of needing p/a and speakers to play anywhere. I have an overly ambitious/idealistic image of just driving around in my car over the summer playing nosebleed electro at house parties every night and getting paid in beer, maybe the snows making my mind play tricks on me. Snow update, i can still board a little bit, mainly flatground trickery and no complys, but my ankles can't handle anything more, lost my keys on the slopes yesterday too, luck is not my friend but whatever, i'm not paying $70 to replace shit.

I looked back/cringed upon a bunch of thoughts i'd spoken or written back a few years ago and am so glad to have a record of some of these things, mainly due to the perspective it provides me on how much i hope i've grown up, and grown out of such childish desires as the need to impress amongst other things. Regardless, a lot of it still made sense, mostly, maybe slightly naive but at least what i had in my head wasn't boring, just slightly too mentally inhibited. Through all this, whatever i'd produced musically over that time somehow hasn't aged as badly, i hope that doesn't sound arrogant, although maybe it is, but i'm genuinely annoyed and still frustrated that i never managed to get a band going with all the ideas i had in my head/fingers, 4 years too late, maybe i'll be able to get something going, but fuck, if i hadn't been limited by small towns and no transport i'd be in a very different place/situation right now, or at least my self loathing side tells me so, you can never know. I've tried, at least.

I suppose i came up with a new idea today about possible collaborations back home/or from anywhere im set up in, writing drum tracks then sending them to someone for a bass track, then onto someone for a guitar track, then finishing off my own guitar tracks based on whatevers written before getting a guest vocalist or something on board as well, i'm just writing this for self reference so i dont forget, but hopefully it might actually pan out, i have a few ideas for possible candidates to work with already, wts. So i'm going to go out now while i still have time, try to phone my mother, email back anyone who's got in touch when i'm in and resist the temptation to mince around on the computer while i could be playing guitar. Annoyingly, don't expect to hear too much production wise from me until i get XP through in the mail, nothing i have properly works on Vista 64, so fuck, i'll stick to remixing telepathe for now.

Peace and fucking, believe.



i haven't seen my sister in so long or spoken either, i miss her a lot, no matter how old she is, in my eyes this is one age that'll never leave my memories.

The King Is Dead

Through my vague love affair with short term alcoholism i lost the entirety of today, mainly to a combination of post vomit depression and bed covers. Last night was pretty fun regardless, i got a lot of welled up over processed thoughts out of my head, much to the bewilderment of whoever was subjected to it. I noticed a few things, i never really talk about or mention people these days, it becomes difficult after the initial channels are exercised to have anything worth saying, anecdotal stuff obviously, but pride in people i know or have known is elusive. One thing i realised quite clearly while i've been here as well as through good conversation and videography is that my idealism would be misplaced to expect other people to share some of the ambition i possess, or have any need for it. There are a lot of over complicated things i seriously want to get into, or achieve in the patheticly tiny portion of time i;ll have in the realm of the living, and i think my paths are too cluttered to really enjoy my life, or the prospect of a future right now. It's 5 am and i haven't really attempted sleep yet, it'd probably make my hangover infinitely less damaging but whatever, i've found enough comfort in simple pleasures, ice cream and zelda, back to primary school habits. Anyway, i've spiralled off in all kinds of directions away from the reason i initially sat down to type my mind out a little bit on here. I guess chilling with one of the few people in this place who've actually had something decent to them has made me go back over some old mental ideas, just the fact of being sheltered from real life not just in this place but in general, apart from for a few forays into the unknown, most people here would place this "gap" or whatever it is as their experience, to take back and show off to family and friends, the same as the head in the sand mentality so many gap year workers do to go and experience how the poor folk live in a third world country or something, for no more reason than self satisfaction or vanity. I'm being overly cynical, another thing i realised over a lot of issues through my latest epiphanetical phase(is that a new word?), but i think i have a clearer idea on a few things now. Vague is easier, and my quiet ambition is no more tamed, but hopefully a little focussed. As long as busyness and productivity are maintained, i can do anything alone, but im starting to wish for company of mental kin a lot more lately. It's been so long that any eloquence i may have possessed is rusted solid, i await more grease eagerly.

Very well, goodnight, oh and chong is one for the books.

Manifestiny

So the other day i basically decided to get my life in order, shave, buy some mouthwash, even conditioner and clean the shit out of our living area/room. No idea what possessed me but i'm willing to guess the impending doom i'd felt a few days earlier due to a massive sense of humour failure in the HR department where i work, as a result, a meeting with the hotel manager, luckily a reasonable and intelligent man with some insights into my own personality apparently, who allowed me to maintain my existence up here in the mountains. It seems writing notes in the staff cafeteria threatening everyone with biblical violence if they don't put their shit away so i don't have to clear it up at work is not a good idea, but the joy and humour i brought into other peoples lives surely compensates for this, i nearly became a martyr for not the first time in my life!

But regardless of this, i actually look forward to entering my room now, and i realised i hadn't really fully explained my living quarters to the folks at home, and other globetrotters. The corridors around here are reminiscient of a mental asylum of some kind, it's the simplest kind of accomodation before any personal touches are added, you enter your unit to find a shower room, toilet, little washing/phone/lockers area and then the two bedrooms. Luckily, yet for the worst reasons, there's only 3 people in our entire unit of two bedrooms now which helps with clutter etc. The rooms are divided with a curtain which draws a line through my and my roommates respective domains. He's got two beds in his so i guess i have a little room, cupboard, half a chest of drawers, bedside table with little papertray and shit, standard stuff really. This is weak and i'm not in descriptive mode so i took a few pictures on my phone to sort of show how i'm living.








The quality off of my ex girlfriends pink motorola razr is extremely close to a joke so i'll introduce a few of the guests, my lil sony vaio, standard sambuca, mixer/interface and microphone, slaughterhouse 5, acoustic guitar and posters, these are currently everything i need in the world.

Well minus one thing, idiot Windows 64 Bit is incompatible with close to all of my music software, rendering my many versions of Cubase useless or buggy as fuck, so before i get recording and producing anything genius out here properly i'll need to purchase Windows XP again, cheers life.. My ankles nearly healed, how you can roll it strapped into a snowboard boot is beyond me, but considering how close it felt to snapping im stoked to be walking, thus snowboarding tomorrow again.

EVERYTHING IS VERY GOOD.