Job Well Done

So it seems i've apparently been doing a "stellar" job at work lately, which despite the monotony of the work, in such a generally fast paced and stressful environment, i'm pretty stoked on it. Hopefully i'm down for less of a chance of unemployment any time soon at least! Anyway, it got me thinking upon how anyone develops towards being at the forefront of their chosen lifestyle, or even their job if that can be considered a way of life, i imagine in the eyes of many career orientated individuals this is the case. When truly belonging to the elite, i seem to think that a degree of nihilism is required, whether it be disregard for any other aspect of supposed importance in your life, your mind/sanity or body. For those in the business of creativity, this is generally an isolated process,, if you have enough luck it may bring others to you, but not often the other way around. Sportsmen, though simpleminded as i may probably generalise, seem to have a way more sociable and enjoyable ride of it, but i think the satisfaction is a more primal one, the desire to be the best, which i guess i just talked about, contradictorily, yet the idea of creation itself, a sound, an image or an emotion, just evokes far more of an idea of pride within me. I feel i have that kind of a singleminded enough attitude on life to hopefully progress in something, where i see myself in a year is not the amalgam of dwindled out mediocre projects i'm currently resting on. I've just finished reading The World According To Garp again, and can only meekly understand the protective paternal fears featured as the general theme other than for my parents and sole sibling, but his(and i imagine John Irvings) writers attitude on life is something i can see in myself regularly, seeing it expressed so eloquently just helps me focus on my plans ahead, which may even possibly include writing something other than self indulgent blog entries. Wait for something good, without the distractions so easily presented to me back in England, i see the lives i could've clung onto becoming stagnant and drawn out, my minds in a good place right now, i think.

WTS